She ain't right...
it's like she memorized everything
or was late walking to the bus stop
or made a left turn on Evergreen
But I ain't been left for dead
so it's right that I'm living
felt like he was talking to me,
when he said "Father forgive 'em"...
I'm not so blinded to the point that I was unable
to see where I needed to jump clear over the table
to tackle my opposition, conquer my many addictions
Took off my shades, it was time to face the fiction
Stared the light in the eyes; they call me Ray C.
so I'm dead...or the ghosts of the greats chase me
Fact is, my decisions aren't the best ones
My life often crashes, God says it's a test run
Dad's seen his only child shine bright,
guess you could say I'm the best Sun
But Darkness falls...like the day Malik Sealy died
Still alive...propped up on Red Bull and can't stop
blew 20K on bullshit, I got my Ross on and copped
Wish I could just be like Plies and lie about being Akon
but Akon lied about being A con, so it's twice the night
and that's double the lying, double the sleep I keep
double the sheep I should see with my eyes wide shut
but she's got me wide open and I can't see shit...
She's got my heart, but she ain't a culprit...
I handed that shit off...don't want returns
just to keep it out the icebox for fear of freezer